4 days ago I left my husband after he attacked me again. Theres an investigation currently but probably won't lead anywhere. He always said he would report me for assault too if I ever reported him and he did. Luckily I have at least some evidence and he doesn't so I should be okay. We have a one year old together who will almost positively stay with me. We haven't spoken since and will not at all I hope. My daughter and I are with my parents who are helping me get by even though I'm devastated.

I'm going to get a restraining order, then work on a divorce and the custody battle. It's a big mess. I'm a big mess. Most likely he'll move back to the Us where his family is while I stay here (in a country I won't disclose)

And now I found out...4 days after leaving....that I'm pregnant.

I can NOT handle two babies alone. I want to be able to but I can't. I couldn't afford it. And I couldn't handle it emotionally.

But my parents are pro life, abortions aren't easy to get here especially for someone who doesn't know the language to read all the forms. And I would have to somehow sneak around for all the doctor visits, meetings, and tests they'd require. I literally do not know what to do. I'm terrified. My parents would lose it if the found out. My mom's health could be at risk. I have no idea what to do. I can't have another baby. I'd consider adoption but I literally couldn't handle it emotionally, especially in the middle of all this. I'm so fucking scared. I have no idea what to do. I literally am trapped in such a terrifying situation.