Ok so my two week old had a rough start with tummy issues and is doing better now after spending our first week in the hospital but is doing better now. Except she won’t sleep on her own and I’m extremely exhausted!

I’ve fallen asleep sitting up a few times and feel Bella guilty even being a light sleeper and having her upright and being in the middle of the bed by myself(trying to be as safe as possible)

I don’t believe in crying it out. It’s child abuse. I need more sleep but I’m so worried about SIDS. Please tell me I’m not a Terrible mother?! I’m feeling like such a failure with latch issues and not sleeping and her colic and even with exclusive pumping not having a good supply and barely enough milk to take care of the next meal 🤦🏼‍♀️😢