After I had my baby I stopped liking my husband. I can’t tell if I even love him anymore. It’s so confusing. My baby was born last December. It was a traumatic birth and resulted in an extended hospital stay for my and a nicu stay for my child. We did fine and everything was good until we got home.

I just found myself disgusted with my husband. Like deeply disgusted. Everything he does makes me irritated and annoyed. I don’t even allow him to hold my hand. I’m worried we are going to end up divorcing. I wish I knew why this was happening.

Is it possible that I still have post partum depression almost a year later? What do I do? Everyone I try to open up to about this tells me they didn’t go through these feelings and loved their husbands and couldn’t wait to have sex again and their lives are perfect and I’m abnormal and it’s frustrating and embarrassing. I don’t want to feel this way. I’d give anything to feel differently.

Edit: I think the thing that makes this the worst for me is that he is an excellent person. I mean excellent. He does everything for us. For me for my kid. I feel like a spoiled piece of trash.