It’s been a minute.

To cut a long story short. We broke up, multiple reasons, his friends told me he cheated on me, I asked he didn’t admit. When his mate told me he did it I was heart broken.

He found out that I knew and denied it. Begged for me back and we tried to work things out. However things got difficult. I started to build trust issues, which he knew and I knew would happen if we were to try again.

Things got weird. He started to distance himself. Long replies, no phone calls, dodging me etc. You know the drill

So we broke up. - this was 7/8 months ago. And I’m STILL struggling to get him out my head, I hate myself for it. I keep thinking about the times when things were good, we were happy and we just loved each other. I still cry sometimes and it’s like why.

I feel like I need answers, but I’ve already asked the questions. He’s in the back in my mind constantly n I just want it to stop, I want him to stop being there. he’s not in my life anymore whatsoever, I have a good group of friends around me and they all have helped me through it. But it feels like something is missing.

I don’t know what to do, I hate feeling this way.