Roommate

Idk if anyone remembers but four months back I posted about how I was unsure if my roommate was trying to sleep with me, that we had sexual tension/chemistry, and that we got along great.

Well the sex has gotten better and better.

I also developed feelings, I told him and he said that he cant commit to dating because hes done long distance (he graduates soon and isn't sure if hes going home, I'm home already and I'm not moving to his home) I feel the same as my last relationship was long distance and I hated it. We agreed we cared for each other but no dating.

Anyways he gets an notification from tinder the other night and it's made me upset. I decided not to mention it because we already agreed no relationship, but its confirmed my feelings are deep and I need to abort. Its complicated being roommates but we are both adults and 25+ and living together for 2 yrs now. I feel that I can be civil and this thing(us) can go back to normal.

But he kept asking me what was up? I swear to god ladies I was being my normal self but he mentions that he can feel a shift in me. He keeps trying to hold my hand and cuddle with me, then tonight he texts me asking about work (he does this occasionally) then an hour later he texts me "I think I've hurt you and I'll do anything to make it better. You mean a lot to me and I hate seeing you down, when you're ready to talk to me I'm here if you choose"

WTF does that even mean? We agreed not to have sex with others and if we did we would mention it. But bro why are you looking? You want to give up this for a rando hook up?

Anyways, this guy is amazing, hes so caring, thoughtful, inclusive, he teaches/has taught me so much over the last two yrs as roommates we've really grown close. I dont want to sound lame, but he makes me a better person. It really hurt to see him on tinder and I'm confused about what to think.

Am I being played? It probably sounds like it and it sucks when it comes from a genuinely good person, like I guess they can be fuck boys too.

As of right now I'm trying to forget my feelings and leave this crush behind (even if the sex is the best I've had, it's so kinky I genuinely think I could fuck this man forever & that's major coming from me if you knew my sexual beliefs)

I plan to tell him what I know and what I'm thinking tomorrow

Also I deleted all my old posts regarding us hooking up because I'm a weirdo.