I hate myself

I hate myself. I hate how I cry so much. I hate that I can never make decisions about things like cooking dinner or getting takeout or if I even want to eat at all. I feel like I’m a burden on everyone. In a burden on myself. I hate being along but I guess I deserve it. I feel like everyone hates me. I feel like I’m overly sensitive and over analyze everything. I don’t want to wake up anymore