Please Help!!!

Hie all I’ve been reading some of the polls here and have learnt a lot from this app seriously!!!

But l have a series of questions please don’t judge!

Am still a virgin but masturbates when l feel like l really want a man but when am with my man l get scared to even let him slip his dick even just on the tip of my vagina am like l hear all these stories about how it’s painful l can’t do it!! Then he tries to finger me but it’s too painful can’t handle it! So he says ok at least do a hand job or blow job am like eww but not in the gross way but becoz l don’t know how to & l can’t just tell him l feel shy to do so.

I feel so bad each time when he comes to see me he goes back with blue balls & a boner and that’s something which stresses me out a lot,l know l don’t understand his pain but l feel it’s painful!

So please what other ways can l make sure he doesn’t leave with a boner apart from having sex?

How do l do a hand job/blow job to help him cool down?

Is there any way/method we can both use to satisfy our sexual needs with really getting his dick inside of me?

Please help l really love him and he does too each time when he goes back in pain,am like maybe he’ll never talk to me again but he’ll check on me n let me know how painful it feels when he is that much horny and how he wishes l help....so please l really need your help if you know of any ideas that can help!!

Thank u in advance