Unexpected Cesarean, breech - FTM. Not sure what to expect...feeling selfish. 🥺😭 Please help!

Hello ladies.

So I’ve officially been scheduled for a cesarean on Nov 29, 39 weeks exactly.

Our stubborn little girl is breech and showing no signs of flipping...😞 no matter what tricks I’ve tried.

I have so many mixed emotions about this...a cesarean was never in our ‘plan’ but we always knew there was a chance for one. I’m thrilled to know we will be holding our little rose bud in 15 days, and I want her here in the safest, healthiest way possible!! Her safety is all that matters!!! And right now that is via cesarean.

But the selfish part of me wants SO badly to have her naturally, medication free...it’s literally tearing me up. I keep asking God why he’s not allowing me the chance to even try having her naturally. The woman’s body is such a strong and incredible vessel...I feel like I owe my body the opportunity to show me how strong she is. I’ve literally been begging to endure hours of labor over having a cesarean... I feel so selfish for thinking any of those things...

And to make things harder, all of the women - and I mean ALL, every single one - on my side of the family and on my husbands have all had their children naturally. So getting support from them is difficult because none of them can relate, and that’s not their fault! I just can’t turn to them for support and questions right now.

I guess overall I am just looking for some support/words of wisdom from any other moms who have gone through this. How did you cope? Did your baby still flip last minute? What should I expect during a cesarean? Did you feel robbed of your birthing experience because of your cesarean?

Kind words only please....

Thanks in advance ladies!