This is getting kind of depressing...

I feel bad even saying it but I have zero time to myself between pumping, diapers, feeding, washing bottles and pump parts. Like I’m not talking about pampering myself but I’m getting a shower every like 3 days because I have to choose between shower, food or sleep. Some days I don’t have time to eat more than one almost meal. Cooking isn’t an option bc I don’t feel like I cant finish preparing a meal before being tied up and having everything ruin. Can’t sleep for longer than 3-4 hours due to pumping or feeding. Husband is working all the time so when he goes to bed he feels his sleep is more important so I think he ignores the cries or “sleeps through them” so that I am still getting up every single time.

It’s starting to sink in that this is the new normal and I feel like I will never get a real break. I love this kiddo but I don’t even feel human anymore. This level of exhaustion is unmatched.