i’ve been suffering severe depression for the past seven years and i just recently started taking medication for it these past few months. i’m still feel so empty and alone all of the time and like there’s just this heavy weight that i can’t i lift off no matter what i do. i feel like i’m drowning. i live day by day and i have no idea what i’m going to do with my future and everytime i think about it i get so scared and panicked. i always thought i’d have killed myself my now and i sometimes still think that in the future i’m going to do it so no matter what i do now and how hard i try nothing really matters. but i try not to think like that. i’m honestly trying to have hope. its so hard. my bed is so comfy. everything is so exhausting i just hurt i dont know what to do anymore. i have people who would miss me if i were gone and that’s what’s stopping me i think, and living day by day. im really trying to get better.