Why us!? 😭

My husband and I have been trying for 4+ years with no luck. Everyone around us seems to get pregnant at the drop of a hat.. sometimes on accident, sometimes unwanted. We have been trying with everything we are to make this happen and nothing.. *please save your “it will happen when you stop trying” or “God’s plan” comments. They do more harm than good at this point. 🧡

Anyway, my husband has been working exceptionally hard these past 8 years 😂 so I decided to surprise him with the new AirPods pro tonight! He’s a tech guy and has been eyeing them. He works SO hard at 2 jobs to provide for us so I was super excited to surprise him! I put them in a little bag and had a card set up for him in the bathroom because I knew he would be in there to floss soon after. He saw my set up and he lit up! “Baby.. what is this!?” And I smiled thinking he was so excited inside for a surprise. I said “just open it, baby!!” When he opened the card and read it and saw the actual gift, he started to tear up. Still didn’t think much of it because my card was VERY heartfelt and basically was me saying how proud I am of him and how I’m so honored to be his wife - so it made sense he might be a little emotional. We had been talking about the AirPods a few days before so I asked him, “did you have an idea it was the AirPods when you saw the small box!?” And he just burst into tears 😭 like actual sobbing. Broke my dang heart! I was so confused.... he ends up telling me he initially thought I was going to tell him I’m pregnant. We cried together for some time because we’ve been trying so hard and for so long. My heart was crushed because I didn’t even think he may suspect it was me announcing my pregnancy - I just ovulated a few days ago so we have been on TRYING mode hard core so I think that’s why it was fresh in his mind. I felt so bad that my good intentions ended up hurting him! He kept saying how stupid he was and that he realizes I wouldn’t know if I was pregnant in just 2 days lol poor guy. My heart hurts for him. We finally got it together and ended up laughing it off and deciding air pods are the 2nd best thing I could have given him besides a baby 😂 but these are the struggles of TTC. I’m so lucky my husband is so supportive and soooooooo loving, but sometimes I forget how much pressure it is for him & how sad he is that he’s not a father yet. I am constantly reminded of my own sadness, but it’s hard for our men, too. Sending love to all of you TTC moms and dads, too 🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡