i have been depressed ever since I was 14. I’ll be 18 in February 2020. I didn’t start taking antidepressants until a few months ago because my mood swings were suddenly completely out of control. I mean I was literally crying daily and just finding things to get angry about. ☹️

I would go off on people for no reason, i almost destroyed relationships. It was bad. This paragraph is an understatement to what I was doing but there’s no time for details .

After I started taking meds things were kinda worse I’m not even gonna lie. I thought they were doing the complete opposite of what they were supposed to do. 🤦🏽‍♀️ My mood swings got WORSE for like 3 weeks .

A visit to the doctor confirmed that my body just needed to adjust to the new meds. After this I was a lot more stable.

I’ve now been taking low-dosage antidepressants for about six months now.

I am in my bed UGLY CRYING RN😭😭😭😭

I’m crying because I JUST NOW realized I have been genuinely happy and stable for almost 2 months now. Of course I have daily shit that’ll trigger me but I mean who doesn’t ?☠️

I never thought I could be happy again. The fact that I’m not pretending is overwhelming. I feel S A T I S F I E D 🥴

If anyone out there is scared to try medication please don’t be . Start with very small dosages . It might be scary at first , but in the end it is WORTH IT . For the first time in my life I’m sitting here crying tears of joy !