2nd trimester questions

Hey ladies, I’m currently 14w 5d and I’m a plus size woman. I have had a miscarriage two years ago, however this baby was a semi-planned blessing. I have had severe anxiety about this pregnancy and finding it hard to be joyful even though I know I should be.

We’ve had two doctors appointments and 4 ultrasounds all of them we left on a positive note. My fear comes from not knowing if the baby is ok and I have no gut feeling to rely on. Fear also comes from being a plus size woman and not seeing much of a difference - if you have any input on when you started showing that would be relieving to me.

My first trimester I didn’t have severe symptoms - mostly mild nausea, fatigue, mildly sore breasts and some vivid dreams and snoring. I’m told the 2nd trimester is the “sweet spot” and to enjoy it - but I’m not sure how I can when I literally feel like my old self. I haven’t had any bleeding, cramping or anything like that.