My friend, I love so much, she’s a pastors wife and I told her things a few years ago when I didn’t really know her that well just because she was the only one who found out and asked a lot of questions, it was being sexually taken advantage of when I went on a trip by myself at 20. She helped me through it I don’t know why I never really thought about it. She was so caring and kind. Texted me she missed me a lot over the few years I’ve known her and super caring things. But I told her I wasn’t dating a really good guy recently and she got to coffee with me and I told her I didn’t want to talk about it but she was asking a lot of questions and I couldn’t say no so she assumed. I’m getting help but I’m kind of reporting a rape right now I don’t think I’m going to go through with it I don’t know why I keep letting these things happen to myself at all, I know it’s me, it’s happened multiple times, and she asked me where I went to the doctor and I said planned parenthood and I didn’t really think about going there I just knew it was free I wasn’t pregnant I just wanted testing she doesn’t agree with that at all I’m afraid she’s going to stop being in my life. i don’t want her to think I don’t have morals or something. I feel so alone I can’t really explain any of this to her. I love her so much.