My sister had a baby today

My sister had a beautiful baby girl today and I’m SO happy for her but I didn’t expect to be this jealous and upset. I’ve had 2 miscarriages in the last 5 months. I was supposed to be due January 12.... then April 25... and now I’m about to start <a href="">IUI</a> which may or may not work but will still cost $1800. And I’m so jealous because she was the first to get married and was the first to tell my parents they were going to be grandparents, and she had a boy (we are a family of all girls so it was the first boy on our side) and now she had the first girl (and it’s the first girl in 4 generations on my brother-in-laws side). I just wish we could have had one of the firsts 😔