Just need to vent and been crying. I got my first period back in May of this year after not having one for 10 months, but thanks to provera I got one and have since.....I haven’t ovulated at all so last month I got put on Clomid 50mg 5 days.....my period was due the nov 4th and I was hoping to be pregnant as it was two weeks late. Though I have been diagnosed with PCOS and have irregular bleeding and cycles. I was really praying as I got a positive ovulation test on the 22nd. Sadly another no except this was worse than all others because I truly believed due to period being late as it hasn’t been late since the 1 provera round in May that I was pregnant.......had intercourse 20 times last month mostly on my fertile days but also before and after just to make sure....then this happens. We have been trying for a baby for 1 year and 3 months. It sucks feeling broken. My husband got on board back last year and I got off birth control. Then no period and after talking about my previous cervical/vaginal health I got diagnosed with PCOS officially. Prior to my 4 year old daughter it was onset to PCOS as I wasn’t fully diagnosed because I didn’t have all the symptoms but the doctor said as I hit my 20s I probably would. Hear I am and in my 20s and wanting another child more than ever....and it seems impossible and hopeless. I got pregnant on my period with my daughter after a year of no protection at all. I just feel broken and my husband hurts just like I do when we get a negative. But I do t believe he hurts as much as me. He’s healthy down there. Count and all....yet her I am broken and my body not accepting his sperm. It sucks :’( the doctors say not to stress it will be ok. Will it though Or is it just your job to say that? I just want to scream and cry sometimes. I just don’t understand and I know I’m not meant to understand or ask why because god has a plan and knows mine. I ask all the time am I being selfish is that why I’m not able to get pregnant right now. Is it because of selfish desire? Am I not putting him first? My husband wants this, and our daughter wants a sibling so bad it hurts me that we haven’t already conceived. She’s not that only child mind set. She talks about having a sister or brother all the time. She even save her baby toys for them. It’s heart breaking when she ask mommy when am I going to have a sister or brother? I can’t tell her soon because she’s old enough to say mommy you said that a long time ago....I just say now when it’s time. I know it will be when it’s time however I do t want them to be so fare part in age they don’t connect.