Need to rant sorry

So I had a miscarriage at around 6 weeks back in march 2019 I found out I was pregnant again September 2019 after a missed period, I'm currently now nearly 16 weeks and I have absolutely no idea when pr infill be seeing my midwife again or at any point as shes suppose to be retiring so says and I quote "I may not see you at your 16 weeks" she already new how nervous and worried I was due to the miscarriage how on earth am i suppose to know my baby is okay if I'm not seeing her! Seems like an awful long time to wait untill 20 weeks for the gender scan to see if she/he is okay