I woke up, took a test and prayed for those two lines.. they didn’t come up.. I waited and waited. Then I burst into tears knowing it’s not gonna happen this month. That another month I wasn’t able to give my fiancé and I what we want. Another month of watching everybody announcing the joys their having, watching them post updates and already have craving. I know it’ll happen when it does but lord knows I’m crying every month over this, I stress every month and every night through the fertile week.

I just want it to happen. I can’t express it enough to anyone or anything how much I want this.