So it’s been about 7 months since I made the decision to have medical abortion. My life has been forever changed, I miss being pregnant even if it was for a little while, the pain and depression still comes and goes, especially during my period. I try so hard to enjoy every day and “go back to normal” but some days idk what normal is anymore? Thankfully I have a very supportive bf that is helping me get through and I’ve just really been keeping myself busy with school and work, otherwise I would be at home crying and thinking about it all day. But if anything I feel much stronger now. The me I am now couldn’t even say the word “abortion” 5-7 months ago, I didn’t wanna go out, and I was just stuck in a dark place. But I’m seeing life differently and it still hurts but not as much. I know I’ll make it though, we’ll all make it! It just takes a while! 💛

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But on a completely different note, what I’ve mostly come on here is to talk about is periods post abortion. Mine has been sort of irregular and I would like to know if anyone’s experienced an irregular period after their abortion. I had my first period almost a month after my abortion. And during the first two days of my period everything is pretty normal, normal color and normal consistency like before I had the abortion. Then the next 3-4 days it’s maybe a brick red color, sort of brownish and almost faint? And it makes me panic and overthink, what if my period is going away and I won’t ever have the chance to have a baby?? And I just ask myself did I blow my one and only shot at ever having a baby?? I’m contemplating on going to a gynecologist but I’m nervous and scared of being shamed or judged and idk what to do??