Long rant

Alexis

Before I start I know what I should do. Just leave him. Simple right?

It's just getting so hard to do this relationship anymore. It feels more like a job than anything else. Like hes such a douche bag. Any time we talk if we have different opinions I'm always wrong and if I try to stand up for myself he gets condescending or starts talking down on me. Or women in general. Or how we're all the same and overly emotional and opportunists and how I'll always be looking for the next man to make money for me. Yes hes the only one working right now but I'm always exhausted, and now our child had something traumatic happen the other day and I've been having to basically be a nurse for her all day every day. He never wants to help with anything unless he feels like it. And god forbid I ask for help. Example. Yesterday he asked me to take the trash bag out of the trash can so he could take it out. Okay fine. It's still sitting in there a day later. He does half of the dishes and tells me I can do the rest, but if I turned around and did that I would be lazy and just waiting for him to do everything. Meanwhile I clean the whole house except the toilet because HE IS THE ONE WHO LITERALLY SHITS ALL OVER THE PLACE like it legit feels like cleaning up after a fucking nasty teen. My TODDLER is cleaner than he is. But he only cleans the toilet after I beg him because it's too disgusting for me to touch. And I shouldn't have to!!

On top of that he calls me a leech because apparently all I do is spend his money and eat the food I GOT because of the food stamp card I APPLIED for. He was completely against it buy I did it anyways.

Yes I'm waiting for SMHA to help me with housing so I'm sticking it out but god help me I want to leave and never look back. But some times I think maybe he is the best I can get. Maybe I'm just as lazy and gross. I just dont know. If you read this thanks and I'm looking for friends. Of course he keeps me isolated but I need to start branching out.