Thank you God!!

A year and a half ago I was a drug addict. I had been using and abusing pills for 5 or so years. I was taking upwards to 40 10mg Vicodin a day. I kept using to keep from going through horrible withdrawals. I cut myself off from everyone I love. Then I hit rock bottom. Got in trouble and I checked myself into rehab on my 31st Birthday. In rehab my life changed. I found myself there. I was so, so lost, but there I was found. I ended up loving treatment so much that I stayed an extra 15 days. It wad also in rehab that I found the love of my life. It’s a BIG no no to date within the first year of sobriety, even a bigger no no to date someone you met in rehab...but we both knew. We knew God placed us there at the same time. That’s the only way a boy from Kansas and a Girl from Texas would find each other.

So we left treatment together once we completed the program. He moved to Dallas with me and we started figuring out our new life. We were so happy but a big peace was missing. His babies. He has a son and daughter by an ex. This ex is probably the worst person I have even met, she would never let him speak to the kids, she would scream and cuss and tell him that he should just die. So we began to fight. My boyfriend found out that his ex had actually opened up credit cards in the children’s name and then maxed the cards out. So he called the cops. The police went to her house, busted in her door and found the cards, and a lot of drug. This was in March. So we get a call to go pick up the kids, by the grace of God we got emergency temporary custody.

Our lives changed again. He got to be the dad he never got to be. Before he was drunk and missed so much, was never allowed access to them, a piece of his heart was missing....while I got to experience a love I have dreamed of. I love those kids with every piece I have. When they first came to us they were scared, they were sick, my son didn’t know how to read, my daughter would hide her vomit because at her other house if she threw up she would get spanked. Now they laugh, we have them both in tutoring, they see a therapist weekly. They get to be kids.

We have court coming up in March and we’re praying it goes our way. Don’t get me wrong, I KNOW they need to have a relationship with their mother. We’re trying, we really are, but at this time she’s refusing to even call to talk to the kids...but I’m praying about it. With all of this going on I never stopped wishing for another baby. One that was half me, and half the love of my life. A sibling to my already perfect littles. God was listening, and I am so thankful.

My whole life changed in a little over a year, it changed when I completely gave myself to God and trusted him. If you’re not religious that’s okay (please don’t comment hate) I just know that he did this for me. And I’m forever thankful !

EDIT: I didn’t expect all of this feedback and support, I just want to say a huge Thank You, I have read and re read every single comment again and again, they mean so much to me. It’s been a crazy 14 months for sure, to come from complete rock bottom to where I am now but I’m forever thankful. It’s still a struggle, I’m still an addict and always will be, but I’m in Recovery now and I’m a mom...God is good!

UPDATE:

As if life couldn’t get any sweeter he made it official. I couldn’t be any happier. He’s had the ring for months waiting on today. I can’t stop smiling/crying. I’m forever thankful

UPDATE::: oh what a happy update I have. This past weekend I got to marry my best friend in a simple backyard wedding...which has always been what I wanted. The weather was perfect, my husband made the arbor we got married under, just close friends and family there, and my 2 step kiddos were the only ones we wanted up there next to us. It was literally a perfect day. I was 15w when we got married, little Bebe decided not to show yet so mommas dress fit perfect!