So scared :(

I have felt so much peace and hope in this 2ww this time around. I feel hopeful because I ovulated from my other ovary that usually isn’t the one to create eggs. I tried some new tricks that my nurse told me to try. We had soooo much fun this month trying, it wasn’t a chore, it wasn’t boring, it was filled with laughter and jokes and pure happiness. This will be the perfect month to have conceived. With that being said I am finding it hard today to stay optimistic and hopeful since it would be such a perfect situation to be able to have conceived this month. Find out in December and know by Christmas. Everything would be so perfect