In 2017, I lost my son and I haven't really been the same since. 6 months ago, my husband asked me if we wanted to start trying again. I was so excited I couldn't stand it! I miss him more than words but I said I was ready to try again. I am ready, but lately, all my friends are pregnant and finding out the gender of their babies while I'm over here dying inside because I just want my son and to have my rainbow baby already. Why is this so hard? I want to be happy for everyone who is but I just feel so broken and just crying all the time. I wish it would happen. Any advice?