Fear of Death

I am suffering from PPD. It’s been 6 months now. It came in a form of fear. I did not know I had PPD, I did not know PPD causes fear. I thought I was just an over-worrying mom. First 3 months I was in constant fear and worry that something bad was going to happen to my baby. I do not know how but I have convinced myself that my baby will be okay, but then my mind turned on me. Now I constantly fear and worry that something really bad is going to happen to me. I’ve been having panic attacks for the past 3 months, thinking I’m going to die. First time I was convinced it was a heart attack, second time I thought a collapsed lung, then a stroke, then a blood clot, then a tumor.. the list goes on. I still suffer from intense fear of death till this minute. My most recent type of fear is fear of food. I fear that the food I’m eating is going to poison me then I’ll die. Today has been tough, I couldn’t continue my breakfast or lunch. Its midnight time here and I’m really hungry because I missed dinner. I am already underweight (I’ve lost a lot of weight from breastfeeding), and I really want to gain weight but I could not control my fear.

I feel so alone, I’m tired of this + I could not afford therapy.

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O

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Sounds like you need therapy and also maybe medication for a bit until you get back to feeling like yourself. Do you have health insurance?

Ti

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I have this exact fear. My stomach starts to hurt and I think I’m bleeding on the inside. I get a headache I think aneurysm. Smh they want to put me on medication but I really don’t want to rely on meds to help me. Idk what else to do

Mi

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i felt like this in the beginning of noticing i had PPD. It’s that overwhelming fear of irrational things happening. I got on medication and did a lot of therapy. i just got off medication this week after 3 months. I hope you find some peace. Xx

sa

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Can you go and stay with family or friends? Going away for sometime might help or you can ask someone to stay over. Spend time reading, going out and cooking. Hope you feel better soon. See doctor if it doesn't get better 👍