Am I the only one acting like this?

I know maybe I shouldn’t be like this.. but it’s only 4 more day til AF show and I’m here lying down doing nothing.. legs crossing, not dare to even go to toilet.. I know I can’t change anything that going to happen. But seeing AF would be very hurt again. I’m so happy seeing those got their BFP and wondering when is my turn. I know god timing is good, but please god.. I think I am suffering enough.. let me get one already 🙏🏻