Uhm please tell me this isnt bad?

Update: ok first things first, I want to thank those for the support and prayers, and I'm truly sorry to those other mamas that are experiencing loss right now. Message me if you ever want someone to talk to, to relate to, I know we all need someone to talk to.

Some of you know I had a miscarriage, even though doctors weren't completely sure I did. I felt it within my own self, I couldnt stop crying for the life me. Hell, I'm still crying 24 hours later. Why? Because the blood clots I had yesterday were basically one of my babies passing through in tiny bits. Today, I miscarried the other baby while at work. No I shouldn't have gone to work but I went to get my mind off of my loss. I had been cramping horribly the minute I got to work and I had to go to the bathroom like 4 other times because I was bleeding so much. But around 5:50pmET I went to pee in the staff bathroom and was gonna flush when I saw this on top of all the toilet paper.

My heart aches so badly, I cried for a whole five minutes before i finally flushed my baby goodbye and had to go back to work like nothing happened. Nobody but you guys will understand the hurt and pain I went through as I said goodbye and sorry to my baby as it flushed down the toilet. Oh and my babies were definitely 8 weeks along because the one i passed tonight was way too big for just 5 weeks. My babies were dying and we didnt even know it. Since my first ultrasound of the 2 sacs looked like jack and sally, I decided to nickname my babies jack and sally no matter what their genders were gonna be. Mommy loves you and misses you dearly Jack and Sally.

Should I be passing clots like this while

5wks pregnant?