So before I start this I wanna give a disclaimer sorry but it’s gonna be a longggg story so if you aren’t into these type of post just keep scrolling 😊

So, I had this guy Bestfriend his name was josh. Josh and I became super close! He was about 5 years older than me (I was 19 he was 24) but we were fairly close I mean our kids hung out together we’d go out to eat hanging out, he’d pick me and my child up and take us out and just be there for me whenever I needed him. In the beginning he did like me I had let him down because I didn’t see him like that and so our friendship went on and I met one of his friends! Her name was mia she was really cool she was fun to hang with and she became a really good friend of mine as well! So we were like the 3 Bestfriend group. Well josh ended up telling me that Mia and him actually use to hook up and that she was his “sugar momma” he would use her card and her car whenever he wanted but he cut it and just decided they were better off as Bestfriends! Josh had actually moved into our mutual friend Tony’s house and then mia moved in too but her and josh shared a room I’m telling y’all this because it will come into play later in this story. Sooo me and josh’s friendship went on for almost a year I wanna say, and one day he picked me up and we went to eat and I just started looking at him differently like he looked sooo cute to me I was like uh oh I’m catching feelings, but I didn’t want to tell him that so I tried to smoothly get my foot out of the friend zone so I approached him in a different way a more flirty way and I told him “hey I wanna be a little more than friends but still be friends” I think he took that the wrong way or maybe I just worded it the wrong way but we ended up being friends with benefits 😂. So about after a week of the fwb thing he wanted to actually start talking and see where things went he clearly told me not to get my hopes up! Which I didn’t. He told mia about us messing around and talking and she was cheering us on! She wanted him to be with me she thought we were perfect together. So this all happened close to Christmas so before Christmas <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android.eve">Eve</a> and all that he asked me to be his girlfriend and me and mia were so excited! Our kids were really close (he had two I had one) we spent a lot of time together as well and I felt like this was right that I was now dating my Bestfriend cause they always say “marry your Bestfriend” right? Well after a week of dating a lot of things occurred which I’m going to tell y’all, remember how I said me and him spend a lot of time together? That’s slowly started to fade it was like only seeing each other one day out of the weekend or 2 days out the weekend he didn’t work so I didn’t understand why he didn’t wanna see me? Didn’t pay much mind to it. After that one his children had a birthday party coming up and he invited me and my child to go it was out of town about 2 hours away from our small town so he took his car and took one of his kids and his sister and her child, in the other car it was me and mia and my child and his other child. So we go to this party everything is great he introduced me to his ex and we actually got along really well she liked me a lot! So why am I telling y’all all these details? I’ll tell you why. After the party his two kids went back with their mom and we left we went to eat and so we get to this restaurant and I’m sitting down my child is sitting down in the middle of me and josh and I could tell my child was getting really close to josh. (Sidenote josh had dated other girls with kids and because of that he didn’t want another child getting attached to him because he hated hurting them when the relationship ended) so after we finish eating mia took off back to town and me and josh and his sister and her baby and my child went back to joshs parents house which was 35 maybe 45 minutes away from our town so we spend the night BUT, before me and josh fall asleep he starts telling me how he cares about me a lot of course, BUT that he didn’t want to hurt my child or his children because he cared about them more than us which I understood you know and then he hits me with “I don’t think we should spend that much time together anymore all of us together I’m not breaking up with you but I think it’s for the best for the kids” so I tried my best to be understanding we went to bed the next morning I felt really off, like it was almost like God telling me to snap out of it! Fast forward a couple more days I’m hanging out with josh and I notice mia is being really weird towards me for what reason? I do not know. So joshs phone starts going off and I answer it because he was in the kitchen and its a lady telling me that josh was approved for his apartment and I ask josh about it and josh was like “yeah I’m getting my own place it’s getting too crowded in here”, So I ignore it and we have a pretty big friend group everyone is close so one day we all go out for drinks! And so, one of the girls I was friends with was there we use to be close (not anymore) she got super drunk she couldn’t drive so we lived really close by each other so I was just going to stay the night with her and make sure she got home okay, so we leave right? And mia and josh and our friends stay, and they ended up all drunk as well. So when I got home the next morning I was telling my mom about the night we had and she looked at me funny, and I’ll never forget this she looked at me and said “baby, I love you but you’re being blinded right now by what you think is love open your eyes and think about what you just said” and I was in such confusion like what?! What do you mean? And she told me “you really think josh and mia went home together drunk slept in the same bed and nothing happened?” And I was like “yes they would never mess around behind my back!” Cause you know I trusted them like they would NEVER EVER do that that me! A couple days go by josh is acting weird, josh had texted me telling me him and mia were going out of town to visit her brother and he was taking his kids with him and I was like “ohhhh well okay? Have fun I guess.” But y’all something hit me in that moment like nahhhh something ain’t right here I tried to brush it off because like I said josh had been really close with me too before we got together. So they come back right, and my friend at the time wanted to go over to Tony’s house because every Friday was game night at Tony’s! So we get ready and I ask josh if he was going to be there he replied with “me and mia are gonna see a movie” and I’m like “hmmm okay well I guess text me later.” So me and my friend get there to Tony’s and everyone starts asking where’s josh at and I told them where he was and y’all the look on everyone’s face was like priceless they literally looked at me like if I was stupid. So one of the older girls in our group (she was at least 38) pulled me outside and was like “hunny do you not see what’s going on?” & I was genuinely confused at what she was even talking about? So next day I start getting this ugly feeling like it was God telling me something. So I broke up with him and right after I regretted it I felt like I made a big mistake and I wanted him back but he was deadset on us not getting back together. He said we needed time apart still before we even try anything again so yeah I waited... a month passed still nothing. Well game night happened again and Tony’s mom had lived there with all them and she told me that mia and josh had actually been taking showers together and I’m looking at her & I just feel my whole body go cold and I was speechless like no? Not josh and mia. No way, mia would never! She said she loved me I was her Bestfriend what do you mean?! So as you can imagine I felt really hurt and angry and for awhile I couldn’t believe it. The first 2 months after the break up was the hardest for me I felt so broken and hurt but I knew God had something better for me and I stayed single I committed myself to God and I had a relationship with him first before I even thought about letting another guy into my life, of course I had dates and stuff but I never connected with any of them to have a second date. I’m currently in a relationship now and I’m as happy as I’ve ever been he’s really something special and he’s nothing like I’ve ever had and he’s everything I could’ve hoped for he’s everything I’ve prayed for. Now if you’re wondering what happened to josh and mia? Well, that apartment he was getting? It was for mia and josh 😊 and they’re expecting a baby, no shade nor any hate towards them I’m happy they’re happy I wish them the best I’m no longer bitter or angry I completely let that go. Well guys that’s my story. To show y’all that when one journey ends another one begins and you just never know who God will surprise you with! Sometimes you’ll wonder why did this happen to me? Why did I have to go through that relationship, why did he hurt me, why did she betray me like that? Trust that God allows things to happen for a reason I see this as a blessing, josh wasn’t the person I thought he was and mia, well mia wasn’t the type of friend I thought she was and that’s okay! If they’re happy together then that’s great, if that’s who God wanted him to be with then I’m all for it! 2019 taught me a lot, I’ve grown a lot as a person and spiritually, and I’m in a much better headspace. If y’all wanna know more stories I got lmk I can definitely do that! I love telling my stories because I had a crazy life! Anyways goodnight y’all! ❤️