I think I caught feelings..

So I’ve been in and out of relationships. I’ve come a long way to be able to say that I am beautiful right? But one thing I’ve always seem to have a thing for was to like guys who are the type that I think would never go for a girl like me. Now look. Recently I’ve had sexual intercourse with this one guy who I am acquaintances with. And we both made and agreement right? To just fuck no strings attached. But I think I’ve caught feelings. And I don’t know how to feel about it. I don’t want to look like a fool now that I’ve caught feelings. And two, am I feeling like I’ve got feelings because during the days before we had sex we would talk non stop? I mean to be fair it was only for like two/three days before we had sex. But even after we were still casually talking. And now we haven’t spoken since, yes I know it’s normal. But here’s the twist. I had sex with another guy and now I’m feeling guilty bc I feel like I’m cheating. But I mean I have never felt this way before. Even when I was having a “fun” summer. But now it’s different? It just doesn’t make sense like ugh. Maybe I’m just overthinking it and these feelings will go away? Because yes, I used to actually have a crush on him but no I made the agreement with full intentions not to catch any feelings. But now look at me a whole ass 🤡...

~ I honestly just want someone to talk to. I don’t know how to navigate how I should or shouldn’t feel right now...