My fiancé and I have been together for 6 years, engaged for 1 yeah and also living together for 1 year. We hadn’t been the safest when it comes to sex lately and well I’m 11w3d pregnant. I have known since I was 4w1d However only just told my fiancé when I was 11w0d. Not the right thing to do I know but I was scared. He thinks I’ve only just found out too. We have our fist scan in 3 days, he doesn’t know this but I have already seen baby and heard their heartbeat when I was 9w4d. It isn’t hard for him to believe I wouldn’t know I was pregnant as I have some uterine abnormalities that it is a possibility I would still get a period. I also have had absolutely no symptoms at all!

But he has said that it is my decision and he will support my decision which ever I end up choose but it has made it very clear what option he wants, abortion. In all honesty I don’t disagree with all his points and reasoning behind it are so valid and true. He says he is so worried that I am going to choose the other option (keeping baby) because all I have ever wanted in life is to be a mum. Without getting into it was aren’t ready for a baby, financially, emotionally, mentally, our relationship needs a lot of work. He’s worried that a baby would put a lot of even more stress and anxiety on to our relationship and might cause it to end.

All logical reasoning points to abortion. But I am attached to this little one and in all honesty I don’t think I could ever live with myself if I got an abortion. I have always been so against abortion especially if it is being used as a form of birth control and it feels like this is using it like that. I just don’t think I could go through with it. I just don’t know what to do, I don’t want him to resent me if I make the decision to keep the baby when he clearly isn’t ready, and on the other side I don’t want to resent him or especially myself in having an abortion when I don’t think I could live with myself if I did it.

I just want anyone’s advice or opinions on it, whether it is it’s about keeping the baby or not keeping the baby. I know it is ultimately my decision but I want to be able to make a decision that both my partner and I are happy with - which it seems that one of us aren’t going to be happy with it.