The sex wasn’t great ):

Eli

I finally got to hook up with guy I have been attracted to for a while. We agreed we were interested in a friends with benefits situation. I was getting really excited at the thought and we planned out when we would “explore”. All today I was horny thinking about him but once I was actually there and we got into it I didn’t feel engaged. Nothing really felt good. He’s really attractive to me but I didn’t get wet and everything just felt like movement without pleasure. Last time I had sex it was a guy I had been crushing on for a while and before then it was a guy I was in love with. Maybe it’s the lack of an emotional connection? I’m just so confused because I really wanted it 😭