Bi or gay


I’ve known that I’m a lesbian for years but I’m starting to question it. I’ve always been very questioning with crushes. I can’t stop thinking ‘what if I do like him’ or ‘what if I just love him as a friend’ and it’s tearing me apart. Going into part two here: I know I’ve always been sexually attracted to boys and girls and it’s making me feel like I’m faking being a lesbian, I know I’m only sexually attracted to boy and not romantically but I still feel like I’m invalid or not a real member of the community. I hate feeling like I’m not a real lesbian all the time and I just want to know what you all think