Have you done it yet?

9 weeks postpartum and still haven’t had sex with my boyfriend, I think I have a bit of a block about it and scared to do it after having vaginal stitches after my birth, we have tried other stuff which I enjoy but then when he goes to put it in I freeze and tell him to get off, I want to have sex with him so bad but I feel like I can’t relax and it’s annoying me! How was your first time after birth and how long after?