confused🤔

I want to “pleasure myself” but i don’t know how, i went to look at porn to see what do do. i tried out just touching with my hands but it felt medical and weird. i don’t want to put a hairbrush in there cause i feel as if it is not for me, i am also too young to purchase a dildo or other toy.(i’m 15) i never orgasm when i try to masturbate. anyone feel the same? tips?