okay i’m an 18 yr old freshman in college. i’ve never been in a relationship and i’ve never “talked” to any guy before. truth is i’m like, the ultimate virgin. but the thing is i don’t care to do anything about it!!

I keep beating myself up and i’m always so confused bc i’m wondering why everyone else around me has had relationships or sexual/romantic experiences and i’ve had none. i was w my friend yesterday and she was telling me how i should start getting w guys, but i don’t want to! i literally do not want to. I have no desire to start dating or talking to any guys.

I keep telling myself that that’s okay and there’s nothing wrong w me for being single, but it’s so hard! especially in college bc it seems like that’s the main part of college. like that’s part of the “college experience” It’s seriously so hard when everyone around you is boy crazy and cries and complains about how they want a relationship so bad bc I don’t understand that feeling and I feel weird and like a bad friend bc i disagree. I feel broken idk. and idk bc nobody seems to understand. relationships seem to be such a necessity in a society, that me not wanting one makes me feel like an anomaly. like “couple goals” are all over social media and A LOT of what ppl my age and my friends talk about is the boys they talk to and relationships and stuff like that. and i’ve kinda forced myself to act like i want one and that there are boys i wanna talk to, but once i’m alone, i realize how fake all of it was.

Idk i just need to know i’m not crazy, and that it’s okay to feel the way I feel. How do I teach myself to be okay with it? ugh it’s agonizing. does anyone else feel the same?