16 Months of Disappointment

This month marks 16 months trying. I’m shocked hearing that number, I never thought I would struggle to have children... my mom had me and my 3 brothers very easily, my grandmother had 5 children easily. I just assumed I would be super fertile (I know this is ridiculous), so hearing out loud “16 Months” is almost unbelievable. I’m praying for our Christmas miracle. This month I had my annual pap, so I spoke with my doctor and she actually took me seriously (I love her) and ordered a bunch of tests. Unfortunately all out of pocket costs so we will need to pace ourselves and take time between each test 🙈 I’m using the Ava bracelet and taking Alani Nu Balance, so I’m just really hoping this is my month 😭 Trying really takes a toll on you and I just feel like it might never happen 😭