Angry and sad

I have so much anger and sadness built up. i would’ve been 15 weeks this week and many boyfriend & i have been split up for almost 14 weeks now. He left me shortly after and dealing with the miscarriage, doctors appointments, ultrasounds and blood work alone is so rough. i just want to be pregnant again, i want my family to be whole and happy around the holidays but no i’m broken. i lost a baby and my boyfriend. I dont know what to do and i don’t know how to get through this