Me and this guy that once had feelings for each other but he had a gf and then broke up with her and is not ready for a relationship so quickly yet...agreed to try this friends with benefits thing... let me add he just broke up with his gf..so we go hiking right.... we found a quite place and he fingered me and i gave him a bj but he came in my mouth really quickly... like a minute max... and it tastes vile so i gagged and then spat it out... so the rest of the hike he was really distant... when i messaged him later he told me he wants to do cool things with me and hang out with him when he wants to but the sexual stuff ruins it. So i asked a fresh start? He said yes. But then after that i was starting the conversations mostly.. and then just gave up. Two weeks later from our last convo i message him saying like whats up? You say you want me in your life but you not doing much to keep me there. Then he tells me he is trying to sort his life out cause it's messy and that he doesn't want me getting involved and hurt.. and his trying to get stable... so i said okay i understand that and when he is ready he can message me. The next day i post a status saying hello December so he replies to it saying have a great December.. so i say Thank you😊 you too,its yours and peytons(my cousins)birthday month. So he comes back with hahahaha great. So i just sent a smiley face. Then he sends 😊😊how you. So i told him i was good and excites to see my mom in the Uk. So he said you must me so excited so i said yes very... so he came back with you must enjoy it.. so i said Thank you and sent a smiley face... he then sends me a one single beating heart.... like what is that? I just read it because we supposed to just be friends and his supposed to be finding himself. But then confuses me with that