My depression goes up and down every now and then but the past few days I’ve just felt really low, sad and just kind of numb inside. Whenever there’s something funny going on around me and others laugh, I just kind of laugh too even though I don’t really find it funny/have no emotion.

I just feel broken and I haven’t felt this low in several months and I don’t know what’s brought this all on truthfully. Maybe it’s because my life has just stopped and isn’t going anywhere? I just don’t know but I don’t know how to get out of this funk I’m in.

And the person I normally talk to when I’m low but she’s been MIA for awhile know and I don’t want to just reach out because I’m feeling like this. I don’t want to burden them with my feelings especially because they’re probably under stress right now too because it’s time for midterms in school.

I just keeping working on other little projects to try and push down my feelings and ignore them as best as I can but it’s honestly so hard. Especially when I’m by myself trying to go to sleep and there isn’t anything distracting me from my sadness/emptiness...

I really don’t know what to do but hope I’ll get out of this feeling soon and start to just feel something again other than mainly sadness.