Something might be wrong with me

I will spend a normal day enjoying myself or just doing regular activities the out of no where I’ll get weighted down with this huge emotional wave. Like I’ll be on social media and see something nice that I’ve always wanted or I’m working for, see a friend post a nice moment they have and I’ll shut down. Its not even jealousy because I am happy for them and glad they are making progress in life but I’ll end up in my head hurting because I feel like I haven’t done anything with my life or that Im just pursuing an education for no reason because its not getting me anywhere. I be feeling Hurt about old relationships. I don’t really speak to people about my feelings and im always the shoulder to cry on but times like right now I be feeling so alone like who is my shoulder to cry on. I be feeling so unloved and I know its not true but I cant seem to get myself out of it. I overthink till I feel physically hurt, my heart feels hurt and broken.

Sorry for the lack of punctuation I i just needed somewhere to put my emotions 😩🤦🏾‍♀️