I need to stop comparing myself

Lately I’ve been comparing myself to others and I can’t help it. All my cousins in my family are fucking gorgeous. One side, she is legit a VS model. The rest are still just as pretty though. I never really use to compare myself to others because I never let my thought process get that far. I always stopped myself and reminded that we are different people and itsnot about looks.

But I just wish I could actually feel pretty most of the time.

I also am now struggling with my weight. I grew up a stick due to my height and growth spurt. Now my diet is catching up and I never really had to watch what I ate or exercise because I always did sports. Now I can only work out with my brother who acts as my personal trainer but he’s away at college or work.

Also I am now emotional eating. I have a bf now that is in incredible shape and that doesn’t help me at all😂. Sorry I just had to rant about my thoughts quickly. Usually I just write in my diary but I guess I feel more content knowing that people will see this, maybe relate or will possibly give advice. :/