Found his lotion in the bathtub AGAIN!

Long story short my husband likes to jack off in the shower and use lotion. I have no problem with him pleasuring himself just like I'll use my vibrator when he isn't home. But what I don't like is he has to watch porn and screenshot these pictures to do so (I do not). I am not okay with porn as I feel like he likes their body better, etc. I did a boudoir photoshoot for myself mainly after having our second child and gave them to him as a valentines day present last year. The book is on our dresser, easily accessible and he has admitted to never looking at them after the initial showing because he doesn't like to see me that way. I'm thinking WTF! You don't like to see me naked and sexy, but you want to see other girls in porn this way?!?! He "doesn't want to sexualize me" he says, but it's okay for him to do so with other women. Anyways if I ask him for sex and he says no (rare occasion) I will say okay I'll just use my vibrator and he will get pissed at me. If he ever hears me say I want to use it outside of us just getting done having sex then he gets angry at me. Twice this month I have found the lotion bottle still in the tub. The first time I found it I texted him saying stop leaving your lotion bottle in the tub. No response from him. So now I'm thinking do I ignore it, talk to him again, or hide it for fun 🤔

Update: Some of you ladies are very cruel and harsh. If you didn't read the whole post then please do because only one person so far has gotten why I am upset:

1. Its okay if he uses something to get off but not me? Double standard.

2. I presented him with several hot and sexy photos and in the past year he has only looked at them once. It makes me feel unsexy and he knows this.

We have talked about the self esteem issues and porn. And guess what is isn't necessarily "self" esteem. I can feel hot and sexy (and I did and was on top of the world after my photoshoot). But it is hard to feel hot and sexy when your spouse can sometimes make you feel the opposite of that. He is aware of this.

When we talked about me not liking his porn use, he told me to get over it and that it wasn't stopping.