Baby shower

So I had a hard pregnancy. As in bad relationship, bad family problems, and lost friends who were not true. I suffered with anxiety and depression in late pregnancy. My parents kept saying negative things tryna put me down because i had a low paying job. That was the only job i could have found at the time. My good job closed down. Still I kept trying to provide for my son. They helped strangers and watched me struggle. I ask God to have mercy on them. So i mention the only thing that would make me happy would be to give my daughter a shower. Well I barely could afford it nobody helped me. I told god no matter what I'm gonna celebrate her. All my mom cared about is saying nobody gonna come to my shower, and that it will rain that day. And got nerve to ask if I'll name my daughter after her. I said no. What kind of family I got. 2020 im leaving a lot of them in 2019