Anyone else feel this way?

I have a baby under 9 months.

I see all these happy, graceful mommies. I am not one of them. I don’t think I’m suffering from PPD. I just feel like I’m clumsily stumbling through mommyhood every day. I have a great bond with my baby, but I don’t feel like I’m doing a great job at handling it all the way I thought I would. I feel like I suck half the time really. I just try to take everything in stride as best I can and keep going. But seriously, I feel like I suck.