Devastated
I was so sure I was pregnant these last two cycles. Both times AF came. Thought I saw a vvfl on HPTs, but always an indent. My husband and I have been trying for 6 months and I am just so angry, frustrated, hopeless and confused. I could stand to lose some weight (which I’m working on and have already lost a few pounds), but other than that we’re doing everything right. OPKs say I’m ovulating normally. Neither of us have ever smoked cigarettes. We hardly ever drink alcohol. I take prenatals. We’ve used pre-seed. We’re only 22 years old. I cut back on caffeine. I’ve been eating healthier. I have tried “not trying.” I’ve tried trying. Nothing works. There’s nothing else for us to do. I hate my body for letting me down month after month.
I need to spend some time in the word, but I’m honestly almost angry with God. I feel like we’ve done our part and now he needs to do his. We are READY for this baby. I have prayed for this baby. I believe God has given me dreams of this baby. I KNOW God has called me to be a mother. I have acted on my faith. I can’t do anything else. WHERE IS GOD NOW? I just feel like he doesn’t even care to answer my prayers anymore.
Thanks for reading my vent. Please leave any encouragement you have.
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