Lame bitch

I never thought I would be this person. I always thought that I would be a good girlfriend but I'm not. I'm insecure af I'm jealous af I told him when we first met that I cant change his past 2 years later now knowing about his past I am disgusted and angry and some days I feel like an idiot for even being with him because of his past. I know hes never cheated on me. But I can't stand it when females look at him or when one talks to him . Ive embarrassed him. Im so stupid and weird and I feel like he doesnt like me around his friends because I'm embarrassing. I say stupid things I do stupid things I dont think before I do I dont think while I'm doing. I used to be better than this. Idk where I went so dumb.