Bf trouble....

My boyfriend and I broke up on June 29th, because he got mad at me, so his friends girlfriend took his phone and was arguing with me for two hours, wouldn't let me talk to him, pretty much broke us up. For the first two weeks after that day, I tried to call and text him, telling him how much i love him, how much I was willing to give up for him, that even tho i bitch and speak my mind, doesn't mean I don't love you, I just know what i want, what i don't want, and what I am willing to put up with, and not. And i told him, if i didn't love him, I wouldn't have spent so much money on him. Every paycheck I got, I always spent some of it on him. Because I love him and love to spoil him... And when I texted alp that and tried to call, he would always tell me that he is "busy".... Also during those heart breaking weeks, I would do nothing, besides go to work, cry on my breaks at work, come home and cry and cry. I had guy friends who tried to talk to me, but it just made me cry even more. Cause I can get all this attention from other dudes, but the ONLY one I cared about, cared to talk to, cared to get attention from, was him and ONLY him. Michael is his name.. So I just thought to myself, maybe he just needs a break and some space, So i held on to that and just hoped he would come back to me.

After those two weeks go by, on the third week, I just stopped trying to talk to him, wanted to see how long it would take for him to contact me... A day goes by, then two, and so on. I realized he didn't want me, so i added a old friend on my ps4 and started playing games with him. He helped me not be so depressed and I wasn't crying as much.

On July 26th, Michaels (ex bf) best friend who i never got along with, who would answer his phone, playing dumb with me, wouldn't let me talk to michael, would jump in the conversation, and or fights michael and I would have. Anyways, he messaged me on July 26th, was wondering how I was doing and asked why i never liked him. Which was weird as hell, cause like I said, him and I didn't get along and we fought to the point when he came over, my boyfriend and I just wouldn't talk those days, to avoid any fights. So it was weird, he was acting so caring. Anyways, during the conversation I told him to tell Michael, that I hope he is doing okay, that I miss him.... And that's when I got the worst news ever.... He said he will tell him, but je also is with someone now. My heart stopped. I was on my way home and all i could think of, was how stupid i was, i was stupid to wait, to have hope, to cry as much as I did. I just wanted to spead up and crash my truck into something. I didn't care at that moment anymore. I finally decided to message Michael, i sent him screenshot of my conversation with his best friend.

He told me that he isn't seeing someone and said okay did you fuck her, he wouldn't answer and i kept asking. The next day he finally told me, said it only happened once and he was drunk ans depressed. That she made the first move. He said he didn't remember much. I asked him when did it happen and he said a few days before i messaged him.

I felt so betrayed, I know he didn't cheat, and had the right to do w.e he wanted. But i feel like he didnt even wait that long. How can you say you love someone so much and just do that.... He said he felt guilty. I asked what else he did. I found out she was the girl who talked to him when we were together and he didn't bother telling me about. I found out they started talking and hanging out the first week we broke up, that she would babysit his siblings, while his dad and him went to work. I found out she has cuddled with MY BLANKET that I sent him. That she would wear my perfume. I found pictures of them cuddling on July 19th, she was wearing his shirt, and they were cuddling with my blanket. They apparently screwed a few days after that pic was taken. I found out he was staying at her house alot, that they cuddled alot. And the weekend after July 26th, when we started talking again. He said he was mad cause she left with some dude and i asked him why he was so mad and he said any dude would get mad if a girl they are fucking, left with another dude. I'm like uh first off, you said you didn't like her, that she was ugly, but had a nice body, nd was just there. Second, you said you all only fucked one time. And third, you said you felt guilty and don't even remember. So if all that is true, why even be mad. You are obviously lying. He said he wasn't.

On July 29th, around 1 in the morning. His dad, her, and him, went on a drive. (His and him like to get drunk and drive around at night, on back roads) anyways, this time she was with. He was live on fb that day. I saw it that day but didnt watch it. Not until three months later. When we got back together around August. So after three months, idk why but i had a feeling and decided to watch that video. His mom was asking who she was, she said she is his boo, and he agreed and said yeah. He was tickling her and some time during the video, she got scared cause of how dark and creepy the back road was. So he said you scared? Come here, i got you. I didn't see it, cause he had the video facing the road. But from what he said, i know he was holding her.... I cried. Mad that i waited so long to watch it. That if i did that night it happened, i wouldn't have gotten back with him. I comforted him about it. He watched the video. Said sorry and that he didn't tickle her or held on to her. Which has to be a lie.

I tried so hard to get over all of this. But on November 27th. For some reasons i was really thinking about it and crying for hours. If i moved down there. If he cuddled me. I would have thought about them together. I couldn't get over this. I want to cause i love him, i want him to be the one. So November 27th, i brought it up and told him i can't get over it. He hated it when i brought it up cause he said he felt so guilty and felt like a piece of shit.

We ended up breaking up that night. Do to that and us always fighting.