So the title pretty much says it all.. I've been on the pill for 5+ years now. I religiously take it on time everyday, but I'm absolutely terrified about being that 1% chance that gets pregnant the moment I decide to let my partner cum in me... I've never had anyone cum in me before, nor let them inside me without a condom... I've only let my current partner run free in there, but then he pulls out in time before he cums. We've known each other pretty much all our lives. We're both 24. We've discussed what we would do if that freak chance did happen, and he'd support me every step of the way because we would abort it immediately. I just can't get over the pure terror I feel of that even happening.. I want to experience that intimacy with him so much. I've literally started crying during our conversations because I'm so frustrated from being afraid of what could happen.. Is it too much of a risk just to try it once to start? I don't plan on letting him do it every single time, probably even when I'm more confident with trusting my pills to that extent and knowing I'll be okay. Plus it doesn't help that my mother got pregnant on the pill, but I was already born then, and she aborted it. I don't think she was responsible as me though.. Please help I just need advice.. Thank you in advance.