I don't know who to talk to. It seems most the world is ok with SO watching porn. But I'm not of this world. This was something never allowed in my marriage. I'm giving my husband his first child/son and I've been put on pelvic rest since 20 weeks. I've given him whatever I can. Anything except penetration. I know it's not the best sex life but it's all I have to offer. And I've been completely neglected in that area but it's only temporary right? So finding out he's looking at 20 year old hot sexy white girls with pretty little pussies and breast or girls with ridiculously big asses and breasts has broken me. I'm Hispanic, 5'5" with a decent figure. People always tell me I'm beautiful. I thought I was. Now I feel like nothing. He's not attracted to me at all since I've been pregnant and I've tried so hard to remain attractive and healthy through my pregnancy. I feel he's being selfish and inconsiderate. I think this is bigger than my pregnancy body too. I made him prepregnancy videos and pictures for him to masturbate to. He said he's bored of them. He wanted something new to look at. I feel betrayed, abandoned, ugly, and lonely. Trying not to cry and stress my baby. And my pregnancy experience has most definitely ruined. He said he's sorry he hurt me and he'll make it up to me with his actions. I don't feel like that was even an apology. Thanks for listening.