So last year my long term boyfriend decided he wanted to try for a second baby. We have a son together who was 5 at the time. I got pregnant the first cycle after having my iud removed but lost it at 5 weeks. Conceived again right away and at 10 weeks found out the baby stopped developing at 6 weeks, missed miscarriage. Took 3 months to conceive again and that one my OB followed closely and it was determined based on scans and hcg results my pregnancy wasn’t viable. I had a d&c at 11 weeks and genetic testing was done. It was determined to be a girl with trisomy 10 boyfriend decided he didn’t want to continue to try and he was going to get a vasectomy. He never did and never took precautions. 9 months later and here I am going on 6 weeks pregnant. I haven’t told him yet. We had an argument while I was still on my period that started with me asking that we don’t get rid of the baby stuff until he gets his vasectomy just in case. Turned into a full blown argument about why we shouldn’t have another baby and I admitted defeat. I ordered birth control

And was prepared to start it with my next period. I did not receive it to take the emergency contraceptive in time and now here I am freaking out. I thought maybe he would be ok once it sinks in but tonight he caught a glimpse of one of my <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android.nurture">pregnancy apps</a> while I was entering info and he was like “what is that” in an unpleasant tone. Told him nothing closed the app and told him I was clearing shit out. He was clearly angry when he saw the <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android.nurture">pregnancy app</a> and now I don’t know what to do. It’s not like I’m a kid or we only just got together. I’m 40, he’s 42. We’ve been together 12 years. We have a 7 year old. We’re buying a house together. But now as much as I want this baby I feel like this baby is going to possibly break us up. I didn’t get pregnant on purpose but I feel like he’s going to accuse me of doing just that. I’m also at high risk for miscarriage and I don’t want to go through another loss alone but if I don’t tell him and I lose it that is exactly what will happen. But I also don’t want him getting pissed at me when he is just at fault by not taking precautions. So far as of Wednesday things were looking ok but I know that could change without warning. I just don’t know what to do. I want a happy pregnancy but I’m terrified that isn’t going to happen. 😞