Casual Sex Gone Wrong

So I decided to have a whack at casual sex yesterday. I've had one night stands before but usually with people I've at least known for a few hours. I'm a 20 year-old uni student, and I've been quite horny recently.

So, I go in tinder and I match with a good-looking, 18 year-old rugby boy who goes to my uni. We have good banter, he seems like a nice guy. I decide to be honest and just come out with it: I just want some casual sex, do you wanna come over tonight?

He replies saying he would love to but is a bit strapped for time. I say I don't mind (I wasn't looking to lose my whole evening to him anyway). I tell my roommate, we get excited. I hadn't had sex since October so I was quite excited. I shaved my legs, my vag, my armpits, moisturised, straightened my hair, and did my makeup. Safe to say, I was nervous but optimistic. Maybe it would be the amazing, passionate sex I've been dreaming about the past few months of celibacy. Exactly what I needed. I don't usually wear makeup, so this was a lot of effort for me.

Suddenly, a car had pulled up outside. It was him. He beeped his horn (first warning sign). My friend giggled and escaped to her bedroom, bidding me good luck. I felt safe, she was only down the hall. I beeped him in through the intercom, and waited, in my carefully planned outfit, makeup and smelling of soap-and-glory moisturiser. He appeared up the stairs. He smiled, and said hello. He kissed me on the lips. It took me by surprise, but I liked the spontaneity. Aware that he was in a rush, I led him into my room.

I turned to face him, and he closed the door behind me. I tried to make conversation, and asked him where he was from (I barely knew him at all), but he was already undressing. I was somewhat shocked. No chat? No foreplay? Unsure of how to slow things down, I went with it. Maybe this what I want, I told myself. Something quick and easy, spontaneous. Like in a romcom. Wordlessly, he grabbed me, and kissed me. He was an aggressive and unpassionate kisser. He started to undress me, having shared only one or two words of dialogue.

Next thing I knew, I was naked. He had his penis out, and I was sat on the bed. The stranger took my head and I sucked his dick. This lasted about a minute. He then asked for a condom. I gave him one, and he thumbled about trying to get it on. He clearly wasn't very good at putting condoms on. I offered to help, passing a quick joke, to which he didn't laugh. No humour, no banter. Just cold silence as I put the condom on.

He then flipped me over, and proceeded to fuck me from behind. It was a weird half-doggy style. I can't lie, I enjoyed it. Ive been horny for a while and this was, in theory, what I had been craving. He fucked me like this for a few minutes. He flipped me over and we did missionary for a bit, until, he came. He flung the condom on the floor, and immediately started to get dressed. He said maybe two sentences explaining that he had to go. Between him cumming, and him leaving, out the door, with a solitary peck of goodbye, there was only a minute.

Once he was gone, I sat in shock for a minute. I returned to my room, and looked at my phone. I gasped as I realised only 10 minutes had passed since I had recieved his text announcing he had arrived. 10 MINUTES. Embarrassed, I considered hiding in my room so I could pretend it had lasted longer, but decided otherwise and went straight to my roommates room.

She sat up and asked; 'Is he here yet?'

I burst into tears.

As much as I guess this is just the nature of casual sex with strangers, it can't always be like that can it?? I felt so violated, so stupid. He made me look like an idiot. It felt like a stranger had jsut walked in from off the street and fuckef me and left. I guess that is what happened.

Was this normal? Am I just making a big deal out of nothing? I know I wanted and asked for casual sex, but never in my whole life have I been left feeling so objectified in all my life. I was nothing but a piece of meat to him.

Help! Was this my fault?? Is this normal?? What should I do. Forget it?